This has been a difficult week. I’m phasing out my Zoloft in favor of a non-SSRI drug that’s mainly used for seizures and bipolar disorder, but we’re trying it for depression because SSRIs have been a total bust so far. Also a guy was really shitty to me when I was being really vulnerable. And coming off of Zoloft is fucking with my head.
This is all to say that I’m feeling awful lately. So what do I do? I over-post on social media. That’s my routine. I feel badly, so I post a lot. It’s my way of feeling seen. My way of reaching out for some kind of human connection. I can’t be the only one. I know some people react to this sort of thing by shying away from all human communication, but I need to feel like I’m not alone in the world. It’s why I suddenly become a social media obsessive. You can always mute me, but I’ll keep posting. It’s my outlet and it’s important.